Morning sickness all day long

The bag for tomorrow is almost packed. Clothes ready. Train card on the table.

I have made the last notes for my presentations and come to peace with the huge stack of books on my desk still unread.

The universe gave me a slap in the face yesterday by waking me up with extreme nausea. It continued and made it impossible for me to stand or have my eyes open for more than a minute at a time. Not so great when you are supposed to be studying. Hard.
It contined today, and I felt poorly enough to actually go and find the last pregnancy test in the bathroom cupboard. Just in case I had gotten pregnant while on contraception as one of the 0,000001 %.

But it was negative.

It feels like my body is lying to me though.

And so I have forced myself to prepare today. Because I have to. The exam is tomorrow morning, and there is no way out. It will be over quickly – and feeling sick the days just before is definitely a good way to lower your expectations. Even though mine were already quite low.

Alan aced his exam the other day. Got a 12. The highest mark. I am so proud and happy to have him being the brilliant one for now. I just want to be the one who barely makes it through. If I can do that right now, I will be fine. If i can make it to Aalborg without being sick, I will feel quite happy. I can ace something later.

Fingers crossed.


Jolina was such a cutie, giving me her unicorn to feel better. Bless.


And then it was Christmas…

Today is the 18th of December. The 18th of happiness I almost want to say.

Today is the day I have to hand in my exam projects which means that I am off school until my exams in January. Yes, I still have to read, revise and prepare presentations, but I am lucky. There is loads of time for that.

So to celebrate that I brought Jolina with me on the train today. We handed in the projects at uni and then left for the town of Aalborg.

It was great! So cosy. And it reminded me of how awesome she is. And how big! She is such a little grown up.

Now we are home again. Listening to Christmas music and making presents before Roxie is ready to come home from her nap at daycare. Life is good.

This morning I was reminded by this amazing woman to be grateful for all the good things. And indeed I am. And I wish I could send her all the power in the world.. She deserves a good Christmas and so much more.

Be happy out there. Take care of each other.